According to dictionary.com a habit
is "an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost
involuntary". In some ways habits have similar qualities to addictions. As an
experiment to get a feel for addiction treatment, I am to choose a habit I possess
and try to change that specific behavior. The behavior that I want to change is
nail biting. This is a habit I have had for as long as I can remember. For a
while, the only time I would bite my nails was when I was nervous or anxious. Over
time it developed into a natural behavior and now I bite my nails without even
realizing it.
In the past I have tried numerous
times to stop this habit but it never lasted more than 2 or 3 weeks. I have
tried painting my nails, using special polish meant for this purpose, and
having family and friends urge me to stop. I even
tried making it a competition with my cousin to give me more motivation but
none of these attempts worked in the long-term. This time I am going to try all
of the above. I want to completely stop this behavior. On a scale from 0-10 (10
being the most dedicated) I would rank myself at 8 on dedication to this
experiment. Starting Saturday I am going to start painting my nails with the
specific polish and my friends are going to do their best to keep me from
biting my nails. I definitely think having my friends and family involved is
important because half of the time I don’t realize I am biting my nails so I need
others to watch for it as well.
This first week of changing my behavior of biting my nails
has proved successful. I have used all of the techniques I had planned on using
(nail polish specific for this problem, regular nail polish, and help from
friends) and it has worked. Thanks to my roommates there are post-it notes all
over my room saying “don’t bite your nails” and they have been helpful.
Although I have done well so far, the hardest part is still to come. I have given it up in the past for a few
weeks so I know I can do it again. It’s giving it up for good that will be the
problem.
Week 2:
Two
weeks into quitting nail biting and I am still successful. It is getting
harder, but I have still succeeding in stopping all together. I have come close
to slipping up a few times but friends have stopped me. The problem with
changing this behavior is that I do not realize when I am doing it. The horribly tasting nail polish helps with this,
as do my friends staying on the lookout. I also catch myself picking at my
nails rather than biting them which is not good either. I don’t know how I can
change my plan to accommodate this as well but I will continue brain storming.
Over all changing this behavior is very helpful. When I used to bite my nails
they would often get so short that it hurt, sometimes they would even bleed. I
am very happy to say that this is not the case anymore. I only hope that I can
keep it up.
Week 3:
I am still doing well with giving up nail biting. However, I have noticed myself being more tempted this week. I have not been painting my nails as often so I think that is part of my problem but I have also been more stressed out this week. Since stress and nerves are what started my habit, I think those are going to be the hardest times to stop. The best thing I can do is keep painting my nails and maybe find something else to do when I am stressed or nervous such as gum chewing. I think this is the longest I have ever gone without biting my nails so I hope that is a good sign that I can change this behavior for good!
Week 4:
This week has been a little more difficult for me. Stress has been building up and so have my nerves. I haven't been keeping up with painting my nails and today I caved in. The second I started biting my nails I realized what I was doing and I made myself stop. It was very difficult to do and giving in that one time made it a lot more difficult to stop myself later in the day. I have repainted my nails and I hope it helps. It is definitely important that I stay on top of this because it is clear that I am still not able to change this behavior without some help. On a positive note, I am happy that I recognized my behavior the second I started biting my nail. In the past I didn't even realize I was doing it until someone told me. I think this is a great sign and I hope I keep improving.
Week 5:
The past few weeks have gone pretty well. I had one bad slip up where I started biting my nails because of stress and I had a difficult time stopping. Nobody around me knew about my attempting and giving it up so I did not have the help of friends yelling at me. I was very angry with myself afterwards but then I realized that being mad wouldn't help so I began focusing on getting a good streak back. So far so good. Hopefully I won't "relapse" again.
Week 6:
This week was a little more difficult. With break coming up I have been very stressed out trying to get my work done. I bit my nails a couple of times and it was very difficult to stop. Once I had the chance I filed them and repainted them to prevent me from doing it again. I told my friends and family and they said they would help keep a closer watch for me. I thought that if I had been doing well for so long then I would have to put as much effort in but now I know it is a long term effort.
Week 7:
This week has not been good for my behavior change. I have bit my nails on multiple occasions, even to the point where they are so short they hurt. Part of it might be stress but nothing this week has been much more stressful than the typical work load. I think my biggest problem is that I am getting too comfortable with the progress I was making so I did not put in as much effort to keep up the change. I need to get back into the routine of constantly working to change this habit if I want to give it up for good... which I really really do. I need to repaint my nails and come up with a way to remind myself throughout the day to stop biting them.
Week 8:
This was a bed week for me. I have not taken any of my steps I mentioned previously to get back on track. I wouldn't say that I've given up completely (I'm still better off than I was before) but I has definitely slid down on my priority list. In order to really succeed in changing this habit I need to be fully focused. I really do want to change this habit an I plan to get back on track asap. When an addict tries to get treatment, recovery must be the number one priority. When family, work and other things get in the way it makes the recovery process much harder. I guess this is a much more severe version of my problem now.
Week 9:
This week was much better. I have not caved into my bad habit of biting my nails at all. I was definitely more focused than the previous couple of weeks and it paid off. I re-painted my nails and paid close attention to my actions. When completing the readings for this week I found it difficult to connect my habit to an addiction. There are not differences in my habit based off of gender, race, age, etc. as there can be with addiction and addiction treatment.